02-11-2014, 09:32 AM
Ok before I start this off, this isn't some sympathy mission, or a cry for attention. I know this post will radiate that feeling, but I promise all of you that's not my intention.
Anyway, I've recently experienced some unique stuff in my life. Some of it bad, some of it good. All of which I don't intend on sharing here, as it's irrelevant. However, it has caused me to rethink a few things going on with me, and this server as well. I know the redstone community is kinda labeled as "nerds" but I really do not care. I think we're an awesome, definitely knowledgable group of people, and I'm proud to say that.
Regardless, I'm starting to wonder if this server is really for me. I thoroughly enjoy redstone, and I'll continue doing it nonetheless. But, should I continue doing it from here? As of late I've been getting this vibe from the community that I'm...not welcome. I don't know, it could just be me.
I mean, with all my problems with cut, aft, me trying to get staff and having the majority of ORE simultaneously shoot me down in beautiful succession, pretty much abandoning the build server because the chat content that's there 99% of the time, working on huge projects of mine that I think are amazing but get little outside recognition. There are many things that make me think I shouldn't be on this server. I'm just different it seems.
Whenever I'm on build I'm just greeted by people screaming their sexual fetishes into chat, while a staff member ignores it and I'm forced to turn off chat if I want to see half my damn screen. So I'm on the school server constantly, and I hardly have the motivation to teach anymore. There's just no ambition in any of the new students, with the exception of shadesz, he's very eager to learn. I'm not saying other students don't want to learn, I'm just saying that, through my experience, shadesz is the only student recently that understands what my job as a devoted teacher is, and wholly appreciates it.
The other day I was on the school server, witnessing some students work together on a project. I get a private message saying "teach me." I said "ok sure! But there's much to learn when it comes to redstone. What are you interested in learning how to build?" And they said..."idk how to make machines and stuff." I didn't even reply. That complete lack of ambition and simple reason just sickened me.
That's beside the point. What I mean is it seems like I'm beginning to expect more out of this community than what it has to offer, and maybe I'm even giving up on it too. This server used to be such a wholesome environment, outstanding for learning and I'm living proof of that. But that perk has seemed to disappear in the ORE community within these past few months.
I just really want to know what you guys think. If I get a 3 paragraph reply explaining why I shouldn't be here, or cut saying "lawlz nube fight meh irl #swag QSBeasts #CODfoLyfeNigga," it's still a response and I'll appreciate it. I'd like replies to be relevant to the topic, but I guess if I don't expect anything I won't be disappointed.
Whatever you guys feel. Honestly I think this server has just run it's course as a friendly atmosphere at this point, and I'm losing the will to pretend it's still the same. Am I alone? Are there others who feel this server has changed, and not for the better? This is why I'm asking. If I'm the only one who feels this, then maybe it is best if I move on to another server, or maybe even make my own. These are all just my opinions, so now I'm asking for yours.
I don't need/want a barrage of positive, hollow replies, or negative ones from people who are assuming I'm doing what I pointed out I'm not in the first few lines of this post. Just honest and mature opinions, that's really all I ask.
I really appreciate any time taken to read or respond to this post. Have a nice day ORE members.
Anyway, I've recently experienced some unique stuff in my life. Some of it bad, some of it good. All of which I don't intend on sharing here, as it's irrelevant. However, it has caused me to rethink a few things going on with me, and this server as well. I know the redstone community is kinda labeled as "nerds" but I really do not care. I think we're an awesome, definitely knowledgable group of people, and I'm proud to say that.
Regardless, I'm starting to wonder if this server is really for me. I thoroughly enjoy redstone, and I'll continue doing it nonetheless. But, should I continue doing it from here? As of late I've been getting this vibe from the community that I'm...not welcome. I don't know, it could just be me.
I mean, with all my problems with cut, aft, me trying to get staff and having the majority of ORE simultaneously shoot me down in beautiful succession, pretty much abandoning the build server because the chat content that's there 99% of the time, working on huge projects of mine that I think are amazing but get little outside recognition. There are many things that make me think I shouldn't be on this server. I'm just different it seems.
Whenever I'm on build I'm just greeted by people screaming their sexual fetishes into chat, while a staff member ignores it and I'm forced to turn off chat if I want to see half my damn screen. So I'm on the school server constantly, and I hardly have the motivation to teach anymore. There's just no ambition in any of the new students, with the exception of shadesz, he's very eager to learn. I'm not saying other students don't want to learn, I'm just saying that, through my experience, shadesz is the only student recently that understands what my job as a devoted teacher is, and wholly appreciates it.
The other day I was on the school server, witnessing some students work together on a project. I get a private message saying "teach me." I said "ok sure! But there's much to learn when it comes to redstone. What are you interested in learning how to build?" And they said..."idk how to make machines and stuff." I didn't even reply. That complete lack of ambition and simple reason just sickened me.
That's beside the point. What I mean is it seems like I'm beginning to expect more out of this community than what it has to offer, and maybe I'm even giving up on it too. This server used to be such a wholesome environment, outstanding for learning and I'm living proof of that. But that perk has seemed to disappear in the ORE community within these past few months.
I just really want to know what you guys think. If I get a 3 paragraph reply explaining why I shouldn't be here, or cut saying "lawlz nube fight meh irl #swag QSBeasts #CODfoLyfeNigga," it's still a response and I'll appreciate it. I'd like replies to be relevant to the topic, but I guess if I don't expect anything I won't be disappointed.
Whatever you guys feel. Honestly I think this server has just run it's course as a friendly atmosphere at this point, and I'm losing the will to pretend it's still the same. Am I alone? Are there others who feel this server has changed, and not for the better? This is why I'm asking. If I'm the only one who feels this, then maybe it is best if I move on to another server, or maybe even make my own. These are all just my opinions, so now I'm asking for yours.
I don't need/want a barrage of positive, hollow replies, or negative ones from people who are assuming I'm doing what I pointed out I'm not in the first few lines of this post. Just honest and mature opinions, that's really all I ask.
I really appreciate any time taken to read or respond to this post. Have a nice day ORE members.